An Epistle

The year 2016, for me it can only be summarised in two words; “Sorry” and “Thank You”. SORRY to the people whom i hurt (unintentionally) and THANK YOU to the people who loved me so much (no matter did they stayed or not) & for accepting the apologies.

I usually don’t say it too loud but i do love all the people around me, i appreciate what you have done for me, doing for me. For all the lessons i learned with you, the fun i had with you, the memories i lived and all those impish behaviour we did in our past..i loved those and moreover i love all of you with whom i lived it ..

So, at the end of the year, in its last hours, lil drunk are my memories, lil buzzed will be my words and unconscious will be my feelings ...i want to say things to all of you..

To the two of my BFF ….AAYU & SONALIKA, Saying Thank You for what u did for me was never gonna cover what i feel for both of you, I love you soooo much guys, u r my lifeline & will always be.

To u girl, u did so much for me, things and all that fun, crying & laughing, shared secrets & silly memories, the “relationships advice”, without you i would be a mess trust me..a best female friend i ever had and always so “gossipy”, don’t get pissed but i am still gonna approach you publicly because i know u get all ecstatic at my audacious behaviour :P ..i love u so much, don’t u ever cry girl, feel free to 'slap' me whenever u feel that i need it, it certainly helped a lot :D and yeah, give me back my SHIRTS & HOODIE too , it's been over a year n half now :P

AAYU...a brother whom i shared sooo many moments, a person who is always my partner ON & OFF the field as well, those SARCASTIC comments & cheap ones too, the sense of humour u have is beyond my capabilities, i wouldn’t mess with you for sure :D & on the serious note someone who is always gonna be my brother and yeah Priya called me & said that “u r nt a confident kisser” so dude please Man Up...meri bezzati mt kara :D i vouched for you ! :3

To the both of you whatever u did for me this year is something i can’t be able to repay over my lifetime, the support from both of you guys, the care & love, the “best friends” which makes u cry & smile at the same time. Just one request from me is Don’t fight in public place it's fucking embarrassing, i mean “mere pizza mai cheese kam hai aur iske isme zyada” ispe kon ladta hai yaar :P ; i promise that i will be there for both of you whenever u need me. i hope u received my handwritten notes as well, love you so much :*

To SOUMYA, i am not gonna drag past days, its already been settled so, this year the support that you gave, the understanding, the motivation, the patience you have shown, i mean tbh u r not the person i expected to be there for me but you came, i don’t know how you pulled it off but i am glad u did, otherwise without you, i wouldn’t be able to pull myself back again on track, so much moments, food & smiles we shared are always gonna be precious for me, the Coffee at CCD and "Readers Paradise" moments were so amazing; quiz over the author’s name & fighting on best books & genre and don’t be modest but you are far better writer than me :) and i will going to be there for the Jaipur Literature Fest this year; i will not gonna let you get nervous on stage this time, you got me B-), it's the least i could do compared to what u did for me; it will be a blast for sure :D ; don't cry much (loved it though :* :P ) and next time slap me lightly if i put u in those sort of "having no other options" situation :P and also the best thing u did was planned for THE VACATIONS which was most needed for me, all the talks we talked, the memories we reminisced, the roaming around mountains and terrains for your “perfect clicks” was exhausting, not sleeping until the morning gazing at the sky, stars, just so u get that “time lapse” video  was hectic but worth it in the end, u know how to pull off best from me sometimes aggressively as well ;) & yeah just don’t make me Sing ever again [so suddenly (: ]… hate u for that :D and yeah vacation se yaad aaya...PRASHANT & SHREYA vacations wouldn’t be a fun without u guys, Shreya i still remember ur dance on “Afghan Jalebi” (no-one got that kind of move u moved, my mouth was wide open while watching ur astonishing dance skills :*) and i am not gonna get married until u danced on that track in my wedding & the dance on the “Break-Up” song..it was hilarious :’D but hey we were the winners ! B-) and Prashant, we don’t meet or talk often but the connection i have with you is so amazing and trust me u made a vacation ‘fun’ especially the “bungee jumping” part haramkhor :D and who can forget the "saanu ek pal chain naa aawe" singing from both of us together, it was amazing & u r soo good with tht guitar bro :D. We will gonna be planning for vacations this year as well (all 4 of us) but this time let prashant & me plan all this, u both girls are not good at planning :P

My college squad “NIKKU, BANA, LADDU, PILLA & “AZAD” :D , if there is something which were worth going to college was YOU GUYS, the fun in classroom, in canteen, in bathroom, on terrace, during exams (b4 & after) were sooooo much fun, the videos we made (still have those), the project work, the assignments & “cheap thrills” as well… the IMAGICA trip was the one of the best memories i have lived with you, i love you guys sooo much. We all are always different from other people in our class, not doing what everyone did & doing what no-one else did, & i believe We all are gonna be so successful in coming years, we all have capabilities to”FUCK THE SHIT” out of everyone & we are gonna do it. Love u Guys :*

The people whom i grew up with, the friends that i have for over a decade, friends whom i have lived so many moments that i wouldn’t be me without you all..SHIVAM, ASHU, ADI, SAGA, RAJJI, TANI, KANNU, PRATEEK & VASU…  The late night long drives & talk in the car with Shivam & Saga and those secrets that we shared & the car driving lessons from you guys; The CS:GO brother ashu, the flicks of awp(sniper) and headshots with ak-47, no-one can match ur reflexes in the game buddy :D; The “anda-ghotala” moment with Adi (thanks for being my wingman & haan galti mana kar aur suna kar sbki, salla “kanya rashi” :D ) & Prateek (the guy who laughs a lot, our videos would be incomplete without your laughing), Rajji ..tu to harami tha, hai aur rahega :P , Vasu i believe over the years u changed a lot and tbh in so much positive way that i am really happy for you man (still remember our late night pizza meetings, talks & secrets). My Past, Present & hopefully Future will be incomplete without you guys in it. Thanks for being there for me, with me. :)

The School-time buddies, i know list is gonna be long this time.. so starting with my “SCHOOL SQUAD OF 9 PEOPLE”, the best friend i ever had PAVI & SID, best moment was when Sid was new to the school & the “shit”, pavi & me pulled together after that we both got punished & was about to beat Bhandari sir in chess competition but they let us go b4 that :D :D, Sid thanx for reaching out to me man in need warna aap to bade log ho gye ho :P , the Rivalry i had with PARTH & HARSH ..i still hate u Harsh for scoring 100 in maths :3, the female friend squad “SHREYA, PRACHI, YAMINI, NIVEDITA, MEGHA, SHIVANI” …. Yamini be the best goddamn lawyer out there; Megha, still waiting for u to come on Dance India Dance & Nivedita thanks for coming to see me (mom told me), i got your letter as well :); Prachi thanks for being my “spy” & delivering those ‘girl’ info :D

The “OTHER & JUNIOR” squad…”NISHTHA, TANVI, HIMESH, SATYAM, HARSHIT, SHUBHAM, SAXENA SAAB, SAGAR, AKANKSHA, NEHA, NIHARIKA, AAYUSHI, DRISHTI, SOMYA, DHAWAL, AAROHI, KARAN, SID, SAURABH”,  Nishtha i am still trying to understand you, quite a mystery to me, hate u for that :3 also i got ur email :* (thanx a lot) ; Tanvi thanx for all those gifts, cards, wishes & Books :); Niharika thanks for all the tv series seasons, started watching GoT back again; Drishti, be strong out there, don’t let other take advantage of your sweet nature; Neha thanks for accepting my apologies for the “misconduct” i did in past; Shubham for not accepting it :P; Saxena agli baar tera breakup hua to rona mt bss :P; Sagar aap to “Gyan ka Sagar” hain prabhu _/\_ ;Karan i will be back on field as soon as i get thumbs up regarding my condition from doctor :); Aayushi u know u r gonna do good with the “Hamlet” play without me so best of luck :P. The fun we had in cultural fest, in zero period, during the secret meeting behind the canteen, fun at “perfect bakery”, seeing you guys after soo long felt really good (bimaar tha isi bahane milne to aaye kam se kam :D and delete the pics that you have clicked :O ), the love you have shown made me cry a little as well afterwards...thank you so much for all those notes, cards & wishes..thanx a lot all of you. (:

This Year was the best for me, the realisations i had, the problem i faced, the people who backed me, the fucking psychiatrist sessions (official & unofficial), the love i received from so many people, i never meant to hurt anyone & always try hard to keep everything clear and in order but something’s are not in our hand. I love u all (who cried & who didn’t as well) ...still there r certain people who got left, i love you too guys, love u soo much for all those wishes & notes...means a lot to me. Text me, Email me, or better call me whenever u need something from me, i would be Happy to Help You Guys (anyone & everyone is allowed to :D, just send me your contact numbers; i lost it )

I believe in coming year 2017,i am gonna implement the only resolution i took which is to be a Better Human Being. I Love You all and Thanks for being a part of my life :)

And..

“Take into account that Great Love and Great Achievements involve Great Risk. And that a Loving atmosphere in your home, around you is the foundation for your life. Be Gentle with the Earth, Be Gentle with one another. When Disagreements come remember always to protect the spirit of yourself & of others as well. When you realise you’ve made a mistake, apologize and take immediate actions to correct it. Speak & Say what you meant, Do what you love, Be Humble but Ruthless, Be Weird but Sincere, Be Calm but Contagious, Be Kind, Be Lovable, Be Helpful, Be Yourself. Remember that Best Relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other. So Love Yourself, Love One Another, Love all that which makes your life together and all else will follow.”

!!! Happy New Year !!!