The CarnaL Night

...throwing you into the bed...

I came on the top of you..kissing your lips...

neck..while brushing myself against you.

My hands in your hairs...
caressing that flawless skin of yours...

Your hands on my back..pushing and pulling me ...You were kissing me too.

You slide off my t-shirt ...moving your hands over my pounding chest..sweating a bit.. kissing me everywhere u can..

and in that fury,

I tear off your top...I can see that beautiful body of yours that you were hiding from me...

Half naked..on top of each other

and when I kissed you for the first time ..I swear,

our hearts whispered to each other,

“Welcome home”.

I asked.. “r u ok ?”

and you replied ..”Just don't talk right now”.

and we went back to ..kissing...

Moving my fingers on Your body

I want to study every corner of it

All of which that makes you whole and to find that one key for every secret that you keep behind the closed doors which we call as clothes.

I want to memorize your expressions as if they were my own. I can read your eyes even in that dark and can see when your pupils dilate and when your eyes roll back in your head.
I want to know you inside out to the point I become your only point of arousal.

You dig ur finger nails on my back..on my chest...

made my blood mix with my sweat but who cares

I have you in front of me..and I ..on the top of you...

And in a blink...a side roll and there you were…

on the top of me,

like a Goddess;

and

It felt really fucking good

but even at that moment,

I didn't really care about how it felt for me.

All I wanted is to satisfy you.

All I wanted was to make your screams to fill the room.

You looked so sexy on the top of me.

Your body against mine.

You were dripping in sweat ..but like u care!

Your breath breaking the silence of the night…

You lean in.. gave me a kiss

Moved your fingers on my half naked body

and I thought that,

This is the touch I was waiting for so long..

which made me feel like that's where u belong...

and at that time I knew

I belong to YoU...

And in that moment I let myself loose

and in a few seconds, I was there...naked ...inside the sheets ..you on the top of me.

and then, I wrap one hand on ur back and a side roll and there I was on the top of you...completely naked...

thinking..

I am gonna love you so hard tonight that you will gonna wish the night won't end...

I slide my hands on to your half naked body...

but in the midst of all that

more than the way I made u feel

it's the way you made me feel

and

what’s real was when you touched my heart it's similar to when I touch your body and you didn’t deny me and I won’t deny you.
..
We took turns surging thru each others body in search of our hearts enjoying the exploration purposely.
Delaying’ the discovery so we can look repeatedly drowning in her ocean while you gave me chills all over my body...

All I wanted to say to you is:
I am nothing like your past lovers.


I listen to classical music while writing poetry as my heart bleeds
Through my fingers. Yet I will cause
Your legs to quiver uncontrollably,

As I enter you with my hands gripping
Various parts of your succulent body.
They couldn’t understand you the way I can,
Emotionally and physically at the same time.

I can feel your body trembling, your breathing getting heavy, your grip on me tightening..one hand on my back another one holding the sheets hard enough to create a wrinkle.
Making you naked and feeling that magic you were hiding for so much longer.
I kissed you down on your inner thighs..you moaned my name...

And all I felt was...

“If you were a book,

I’d open your legs

Lick the words

from the page

And drink all the ink…”

In the morning
I lay half-naked under the sheet.

Listening to the rain,

through the open window

thinking and,

feeling the..

Cool Evening Air,

Your Warm Hands on my Chest..

You in my Arms,

Looking into my Eyes,

Half-asleep..Tired and Exhausted.

And all I thought was,

“There could be nothing,

Quite as perfect as this.”

This one's for you !My SunShine!

The SnapChat Fiasco

Snapchat is in the news in India for all the wrong reasons. The reason: Snapchat CEO Evan Spiegel is alleged to have said the following statement in 2015: “This app is only for rich people… I don’t want to expand into poor countries like India and Spain.” #UninstallSnapchat is trending big and apparently Google Play Store ratings for the app have fallen.

Anyways, this is something a downside which you can expect from such a conspicuous statement but after reading the above statement ‘carefully’ and the whole context in which it has been spoken plus the reason why he said this, I believe whatever the CEO said is quite true actually.
The way Indians reacted to this thing is quite absurd, funny, illogical & idiotic in my pov. We Indians are aggressive when we are angry, we left out every reasons that can prove us wrong in such situations, not listening to the other person is programmed in us “by-default”; why can’t we actually for once calm down ourselves and look at the situation from the another's perspective? oh..i know the reason, it's because it requires an effort and we are lazy people, we believe in things which others has said which makes us naive and also in our ‘gut’ feeling which is ok but before raising your voice against (or in favor) of something first have a look at the situation by yourself. And if you still doesn't want to, let me help you to look at the whole situation of SNAPCHAT FIASCO from different angle.

• The statement that came forward is only a piece of whole testimony that CEO put in front. By “poor countries” what he meant was “countries with low internet connectivity” (which is a true for India..oops !).
  Here is what he said “In addition, because our products typically require high bandwidth data capabilities, the majority of our users live in countries with high-end mobile device penetration and high bandwidth capacity cellular networks with large coverage areas. We therefore do not expect to experience rapid user growth or engagement in countries with low smartphone penetration even if such countries have well-established and high bandwidth capacity cellular networks. We may also not experience rapid user growth or engagement in countries where, even though smartphone penetration is high, due to the lack of sufficient cellular based data networks, consumers rely heavily on Wi-Fi and may not access our products regularly.”
  If you look at their statement, India typically is not a market where they will do well. Sure all of a sudden 4G is popular thanks to Reliance Jio, but our internet connectivity is far from excellent and yeah Snapchat does require a constant and heavy duty internet connection, since the app is so geared around uploading and consuming video content.This shows how “absurdly” Indians reacted to the whole scenario :-/
• The other problem for Snapchat: Android has never been their priority and that’s what a majority of people in India use, in fact most of the “developing” countries (Yes we are still a Developing country), Android reigns supreme.
  Again the SEC statement reads, “To continue growth in user engagement, we will need to prioritize development of our products to operate on smartphones with Android operating systems. If we are unable to improve operability of our products on smartphones with Android operating systems, and those smartphones become more popular and fewer people use smartphones with iOS operating systems, our business could be seriously harmed.”
  In Snapchat’s own words, their success right now is dependent on iOS being popular so before reacting in an idiotic way, next time think from your head ( that is if you can :P) !
• While people were boycotting snapchat others funnily lost the plot while expressing their anger and mistook Snapchat with the e-commerce platform Snapdeal and down-voted the Snapdeal app. I mean are you guys so stupid that you just can’t differentiate between two apps on the android market or blind to even see what is actually going on? This shows how much we Indians rely on “what other people said” and not thinking or using our own brain. Snapdeal CEO Kunal Bahl wrote on Twitter: “People asking us to make a statement that Snapdeal is not Snapchat was possibly the last thing I thought I would ever need to do". ( ROFL :D).
  Such reactions of people makes me wonder how many times these people would have wrongly answered the question in examination since they are not even bothered to read the whole question that has been asked :P
• Lets face the truth now, if you were the CEO of a billion dollar company ask yourself this question: Would you expand your business to the countries where there is less number of chances of expansion & increase in revenue? Certainly Not. The key word of the statement made by CEO was “expansion” and he was right by saying that he doesn’t want to expand into poor countries like India (& Spain). I mean seriously if i (or someone else) would have been in his place, i will surely not expand my business into such countries or area where there is less chances to increase my company’s market value. India is still developing, it’s true that we are attracting lot of investors to come in India (Thanks to PM Modi) but still we have a long way to go and also that every business man has different perspective & thinking and expanding a business to another country requires lot of money, research & time and even after that if company is not able to make some money then what’s the point of expansion.

And tell me how many people are there who actually stopped using snapchat after this..i would say very few (1-5 out of 100) which is negligible and trust me after a month they will come back and everyone will gonna forget about this whole “petty” thing.

As for now,

It is safe to say that, we Indians need Anger Management Classes. I fail to understand this fact that, how we so easily starts hyperventilating regarding something as baseless such as this. 

Being Patriotic is one thing but blindly accusing someone is Idiotic in nature. Think twice, Think yourself, Think logically, Think wisely, See the whole situation from every perspective, Don’t be a fool or naive, Shift your paradigm, Broaden your views, and then make up your point with strong reasons to back it up and just stop going in the same direction where every person is going. Please. 

The ReLationShips

Isn’t that word sounds pathetic or boring or disgusting or maybe I should say what most of us says “Relationship, it just sucks!!” or “Don’t have time for this”. The real question is Why are the relationships so hard today? Why do we fail in love every time? Why we as a human suddenly became so inept at making relationships last? Have we forgotten how to love? Or worse forgotten what love is?

It’s because, it’s not love that we look for in a person, we look for excitement and thrill in life. We want someone to watch movies & party with, not someone who understands us in our deepest silences. We spend time together, we make memories and then it gets faded as fast as they came. We don’t want partner in our life, just someone who can make us feel alive right now and not a single second more than that. I am not saying that there should not be an excitement or thrill or adventure but as the excitement gets fade, we discover nobody ever prepared us for the mundane. We don’t believe in the beauty of predictability because we’re too blinded by the thrill of adventure.

And the thing with our generation is We’re not prepared much. We’re not prepared for the sacrifices, for the compromises, which is necessary for the unconditional love and “forever kind of relationships”. We’re not ready to invest all that it takes to make a relationship work. We want easy. We’re quite a quitter when it comes to relationships especially the one who gets in a relationship in the past which sadly doesn’t worked out so well and hence for them “Relationship sucks” (which is funny actually, at least for me). All it takes is a single hurdle to make us crumble to our feet. We don’t let love grow, we let go before time.

We seldom have a talk with our partner, all we do is a small conversation and that’s it. I mean how you could possibly make a good connection without even having a “Real Talk”. We forgo any chance of achieving real connection by mutually playing games with no winner. Competing for “Most Detached” and “Best at Being Emotionally Unavailable”, what we end up actually winning is “Most Likely to Be Alone”.

Here is a pick from one of the Article I read “We want the facade of a relationship but we don’t want the work of a relationship. We want the hand holding without an eye contact, the testing without serious conversations. We want the happily ever after, but we don’t want to put the effort in the here and now. We long for that world series kind of love, without being willing to go to bat.” 

We don’t want relationships- we want “Friends with Benefits” and “No Strings Attached” and these kind of relationships, all they give us the illusion of a relationship, without being in an actual relationship. Sometimes we do want to connect (truly), we try but not too much. And what about the Commitment? We want to commit but A LITTLE- BUT NOT A LOT. We take it slow when it comes to the real part, real responsibilities but for the “other things”, we kind of just rush into that without thinking for a second. We keep one foot out the door, keeping an eye open, toying with their emotions but most of all toying with our own emotions.

We look for instant gratification in everything we do – the things we post online, the careers we choose, and the people we fall in love with. We want the maturity in a relationship that comes with time, the emotional connect that develops over years, that sense of belonging when we barely even know the other person. Apparently, nothing’s worth our time and patience – not even love. We’d rather spend an hour each with a hundred people than spending a day with one. We believe in having ‘options’. We’re ‘social’ people. We believe more in meeting people than getting to know them. We’re greedy. We want to have everything. We get into relationships at the slightest attraction and step out, the moment we find someone better. We don’t want to bring out the best in that one person. We want them to be perfect. We date a lot of people but rarely give any of them a real chance. We’re disappointed in everyone. Our physical presence has been replaced by texts, voice messages, snap-chats and video calls. We don’t feel the need to spend time together anymore. We have too much of each other already. There’s nothing left to talk about. 

We’re a generation that calls itself ‘sexually liberated’. We can tell sex apart from love, or so we think. We’re the hook-up-break-up generation. We have sex first and then decide if we want to love someone. Sex comes easy, loyalty doesn’t. Getting laid has become the new getting drunk. You do it not because you love the other person, but because you want to feel good. It’s all the temporary fulfillment we need. Sex outside relationships isn’t a taboo anymore. Relationships aren’t that simple anymore. We’re a scared generation – scared to fall in love, scared to commit, scared to fall, scared to get hurt, and scared to get our hearts broken. We don’t allow anyone in, nor do we step out and love anyone unconditionally. We lurk from behind walls we’ve created ourselves, looking for love and running away the moment we really find it. We suddenly ‘cannot handle it’. We don’t want to be vulnerable. We don’t want to bare our soul to anyone. We’re too guarded.

We don’t even value relationships anymore. We let go of the most wonderful people without putting any efforts to save it. How could we possibly do that even after knowing that We will never ever going to find someone like them and that is for sure. Of course, there will be someone else taking their place, memories going to fade away, you will be going to stop thinking about them eventually, but could you stop remembering them ever? No..you could not because in the end when you lose somebody, every candle, every prayer, every tear, every wish, is not going to make up for the fact that the only thing that you have left is a hole in your life where that somebody that you cared about used to be. But sadly, even after knowing all of this we do let that person go without giving them chance to explain, without even thinking for a second, we can’t step aside our anger for a moment to think, all we do is make rash decisions, this is not so good. (Unless someone really messed it all then it’s obvious).

We sit with our friends (real ones) discussing about these things, asking for advice to how to approach these kinds of things but the fact is everyone is different, their perspective is different, whatever happened or whatever you will going to decide further is up to you and the true thing is no one even knows how the “RELATIONSHIP” works. Because the problem with us not wanting relationships is that, at the end of the day, we actually do. And so,

If you love someone, cherish it,
 love them completely, 

Say it, show it, most importantly meant it.

Life is finite and Heart is fragile.

Just because someone is there one day, they might not be the next day.

Never take anyone for granted.

Say what you need to say, then say a little more.

Love her the way you want to, show her how much she meant to you.

Care for her, Respect her, 
Share things, Exchange lots of Hugs n Kisses, Put your trust in each other, Eat pizza together, Watch fav. shows n movies.

Grow Together. Laugh Together. Love Together.
Love each other way too much.

Because,

Everything is temporary but love..

Love outlives us all..

Happy Valentine’s Day !!

The IntroVert LoVe

We crave your time. We crave you in the quiet afternoon, in the thunder of storm. We don't need much, just bring us your heart, pinned to your sleeve. Just bring us your mind, cupped within your palms. Bring us closeness, your hinged rib-cage, your dreams and your aspirations. Bring us the key to the world you hold within you and we will explore it. We will always explore it.

We crave your understanding. We crave the ability to be who we are- the overthinking, daydreaming, messy hearted human being who have the loudest worlds tucked beneath their skin. We crave your acceptance - your arms around us when we need, a smile on your face, a silent sleep on your lap, a gentle kiss on forehead, a warm hug and sometimes a tight one as well and a nudge that says "It's okay to be drained. It's okay".

We crave your patience. We crave time - time to figure out the feeling that jump and leap and shout inside us. We tread so deeply, we sometimes drown. Love overstimulates us, it plants seeds in our lungs and sometimes it gets hard to breathe. We crave permission to pluck the weeds from within our chests, we crave permission to learn how to wade in our depth, until we know how to swim. We crave your confidence in us, in our ability to dug up what we want to express to you. Because we do care, we do; we just want to be sure of ourselves; we just want to be sure of our heart, before we allow someone to make a home within us, with us.

We crave close relationships. A love which makes us feel safe; safe to be near you, safe to open up with you, safe to share a secret with you and safe enough to have you our heart and love. The kind of love that erupts into an uncontrollable blaze which then simmers down to embers and burns quietly, comfortably for years. The kind of love they write novels about, poems and symphonies about. The kind of love that teaches more than you thought you could ever learn and gives back infinitely more than it takes. It is the "Love of your Life" kind of love. A long meaningful conversation in the night, a slightly illogical in between too; talk to us, we will listen to you carefully and assimilate every word coming out of your mouth. While talking to us over phone we will going to know how you would have actually said that, the tone of voice, the pitch, the words and the expressions on your face.

We crave distance. We crave room to stretch our limbs, soft moments where nothing is expected of us. This is how we connect with our softness; this is how we connect with our quiet. When this happens, we crave the ability to be alone without hurting you - without causing you to retreat into your mind; without making you believe that you did something wrong or that we have lost interest. Trust me - if we love you, we love you; But we crave your compassion, your empathy because moments alone with our hopes and our dreams are just as important as the moments we spend with you. They are our strength. They are our comfort, our fuel, our paradise.

We crave your knowledge of us. We crave the way you see the small things we do as declarations of our love. See, when we do 'extroverted' things with you, when we come out with you and dance with you and laugh out loud with you, we want you to know what that means. How we love seeing you happy. How it makes it all worth it, even if it makes us weary.

And when we invite you into our heads, when we show you our favorite books or cry in front of you while watching our favorite movie; when we share with you these extensions of who we are, and what shaped the very foundation of our souls, we want you to know what that means. How hard it is for us. How we try for you. How we always try for you.  We crave time of you, with you; for us the time is something very important, see when we share our time with you, going out with you, coming to meet you, talking to you on phone or in-person that means you are special to us, you should realize that.

We will gonna love you until the end. We will remember everything about you, the smell of your body, the color of your clothes you wear at our first meeting, the laughs and smiles. We will be there with you to wipe your tears when u cry and nose in the winter. We will give you a shoulder to lean on, we will give you warm hug when you need one; will kiss you on your cheeks, forehead or maybe the whole face as well, we will whisper close in your ears "i love you" which will going to swim across to your heart giving shiver through your body. We will see right into your eyes, will pin you down to the walls and kiss every square inch of your body leaving the impression which will gonna last forever.

We crave people in our life that make forever seem too short. We want to be surrounded by people who makes our heart pound and skip a beat because their presence makes us so happy. We want to be around people who inspire us and make us want to be better and do better. We want to be around people who we know will be there for us forever through the thick and thin because we will absolutely be that person for them. We want to be surrounded by people who actually want to be around us and don't leave us wondering where i stand with them. We only want forever relations because when we're old and gray, we want the people by our side who have been there with us for everything.

What would happen if you dove into the colossal quiet that 

heralds the storm?
Just before the storm commences its chaotic dance, we (introverts)

wade into the silence and revel in its mysterious beauty.

We allow it to envelop us.

Our thoughts and emotions emerge from the dark corners 

where they hid, marching bravely to the rhythm of our own heartbeat.

And nothing more.

From the platform of silence, we can see clearly. We look 

up from our cluttered thoughts and find beauty.

Beauty in darkness.

Beauty in creation.

Beauty in our own flawed nature.

While the world is sleeping, quietness is our muse.

Thoughts become louder as our imagination comes to life.

Ideas paint the dull inner circles of our mind and give us our 

new perspective.

In Silence we can feel, hear and see ourselves.

And our spirit, find its voice.

An Epistle

The year 2016, for me it can only be summarised in two words; “Sorry” and “Thank You”. SORRY to the people whom i hurt (unintentionally) and THANK YOU to the people who loved me so much (no matter did they stayed or not) & for accepting the apologies.

I usually don’t say it too loud but i do love all the people around me, i appreciate what you have done for me, doing for me. For all the lessons i learned with you, the fun i had with you, the memories i lived and all those impish behaviour we did in our past..i loved those and moreover i love all of you with whom i lived it ..

So, at the end of the year, in its last hours, lil drunk are my memories, lil buzzed will be my words and unconscious will be my feelings ...i want to say things to all of you..

To the two of my BFF ….AAYU & SONALIKA, Saying Thank You for what u did for me was never gonna cover what i feel for both of you, I love you soooo much guys, u r my lifeline & will always be.

To u girl, u did so much for me, things and all that fun, crying & laughing, shared secrets & silly memories, the “relationships advice”, without you i would be a mess trust me..a best female friend i ever had and always so “gossipy”, don’t get pissed but i am still gonna approach you publicly because i know u get all ecstatic at my audacious behaviour :P ..i love u so much, don’t u ever cry girl, feel free to 'slap' me whenever u feel that i need it, it certainly helped a lot :D and yeah, give me back my SHIRTS & HOODIE too , it's been over a year n half now :P

AAYU...a brother whom i shared sooo many moments, a person who is always my partner ON & OFF the field as well, those SARCASTIC comments & cheap ones too, the sense of humour u have is beyond my capabilities, i wouldn’t mess with you for sure :D & on the serious note someone who is always gonna be my brother and yeah Priya called me & said that “u r nt a confident kisser” so dude please Man Up...meri bezzati mt kara :D i vouched for you ! :3

To the both of you whatever u did for me this year is something i can’t be able to repay over my lifetime, the support from both of you guys, the care & love, the “best friends” which makes u cry & smile at the same time. Just one request from me is Don’t fight in public place it's fucking embarrassing, i mean “mere pizza mai cheese kam hai aur iske isme zyada” ispe kon ladta hai yaar :P ; i promise that i will be there for both of you whenever u need me. i hope u received my handwritten notes as well, love you so much :*

To SOUMYA, i am not gonna drag past days, its already been settled so, this year the support that you gave, the understanding, the motivation, the patience you have shown, i mean tbh u r not the person i expected to be there for me but you came, i don’t know how you pulled it off but i am glad u did, otherwise without you, i wouldn’t be able to pull myself back again on track, so much moments, food & smiles we shared are always gonna be precious for me, the Coffee at CCD and "Readers Paradise" moments were so amazing; quiz over the author’s name & fighting on best books & genre and don’t be modest but you are far better writer than me :) and i will going to be there for the Jaipur Literature Fest this year; i will not gonna let you get nervous on stage this time, you got me B-), it's the least i could do compared to what u did for me; it will be a blast for sure :D ; don't cry much (loved it though :* :P ) and next time slap me lightly if i put u in those sort of "having no other options" situation :P and also the best thing u did was planned for THE VACATIONS which was most needed for me, all the talks we talked, the memories we reminisced, the roaming around mountains and terrains for your “perfect clicks” was exhausting, not sleeping until the morning gazing at the sky, stars, just so u get that “time lapse” video  was hectic but worth it in the end, u know how to pull off best from me sometimes aggressively as well ;) & yeah just don’t make me Sing ever again [so suddenly (: ]… hate u for that :D and yeah vacation se yaad aaya...PRASHANT & SHREYA vacations wouldn’t be a fun without u guys, Shreya i still remember ur dance on “Afghan Jalebi” (no-one got that kind of move u moved, my mouth was wide open while watching ur astonishing dance skills :*) and i am not gonna get married until u danced on that track in my wedding & the dance on the “Break-Up” song..it was hilarious :’D but hey we were the winners ! B-) and Prashant, we don’t meet or talk often but the connection i have with you is so amazing and trust me u made a vacation ‘fun’ especially the “bungee jumping” part haramkhor :D and who can forget the "saanu ek pal chain naa aawe" singing from both of us together, it was amazing & u r soo good with tht guitar bro :D. We will gonna be planning for vacations this year as well (all 4 of us) but this time let prashant & me plan all this, u both girls are not good at planning :P

My college squad “NIKKU, BANA, LADDU, PILLA & “AZAD” :D , if there is something which were worth going to college was YOU GUYS, the fun in classroom, in canteen, in bathroom, on terrace, during exams (b4 & after) were sooooo much fun, the videos we made (still have those), the project work, the assignments & “cheap thrills” as well… the IMAGICA trip was the one of the best memories i have lived with you, i love you guys sooo much. We all are always different from other people in our class, not doing what everyone did & doing what no-one else did, & i believe We all are gonna be so successful in coming years, we all have capabilities to”FUCK THE SHIT” out of everyone & we are gonna do it. Love u Guys :*

The people whom i grew up with, the friends that i have for over a decade, friends whom i have lived so many moments that i wouldn’t be me without you all..SHIVAM, ASHU, ADI, SAGA, RAJJI, TANI, KANNU, PRATEEK & VASU…  The late night long drives & talk in the car with Shivam & Saga and those secrets that we shared & the car driving lessons from you guys; The CS:GO brother ashu, the flicks of awp(sniper) and headshots with ak-47, no-one can match ur reflexes in the game buddy :D; The “anda-ghotala” moment with Adi (thanks for being my wingman & haan galti mana kar aur suna kar sbki, salla “kanya rashi” :D ) & Prateek (the guy who laughs a lot, our videos would be incomplete without your laughing), Rajji ..tu to harami tha, hai aur rahega :P , Vasu i believe over the years u changed a lot and tbh in so much positive way that i am really happy for you man (still remember our late night pizza meetings, talks & secrets). My Past, Present & hopefully Future will be incomplete without you guys in it. Thanks for being there for me, with me. :)

The School-time buddies, i know list is gonna be long this time.. so starting with my “SCHOOL SQUAD OF 9 PEOPLE”, the best friend i ever had PAVI & SID, best moment was when Sid was new to the school & the “shit”, pavi & me pulled together after that we both got punished & was about to beat Bhandari sir in chess competition but they let us go b4 that :D :D, Sid thanx for reaching out to me man in need warna aap to bade log ho gye ho :P , the Rivalry i had with PARTH & HARSH ..i still hate u Harsh for scoring 100 in maths :3, the female friend squad “SHREYA, PRACHI, YAMINI, NIVEDITA, MEGHA, SHIVANI” …. Yamini be the best goddamn lawyer out there; Megha, still waiting for u to come on Dance India Dance & Nivedita thanks for coming to see me (mom told me), i got your letter as well :); Prachi thanks for being my “spy” & delivering those ‘girl’ info :D

The “OTHER & JUNIOR” squad…”NISHTHA, TANVI, HIMESH, SATYAM, HARSHIT, SHUBHAM, SAXENA SAAB, SAGAR, AKANKSHA, NEHA, NIHARIKA, AAYUSHI, DRISHTI, SOMYA, DHAWAL, AAROHI, KARAN, SID, SAURABH”,  Nishtha i am still trying to understand you, quite a mystery to me, hate u for that :3 also i got ur email :* (thanx a lot) ; Tanvi thanx for all those gifts, cards, wishes & Books :); Niharika thanks for all the tv series seasons, started watching GoT back again; Drishti, be strong out there, don’t let other take advantage of your sweet nature; Neha thanks for accepting my apologies for the “misconduct” i did in past; Shubham for not accepting it :P; Saxena agli baar tera breakup hua to rona mt bss :P; Sagar aap to “Gyan ka Sagar” hain prabhu _/\_ ;Karan i will be back on field as soon as i get thumbs up regarding my condition from doctor :); Aayushi u know u r gonna do good with the “Hamlet” play without me so best of luck :P. The fun we had in cultural fest, in zero period, during the secret meeting behind the canteen, fun at “perfect bakery”, seeing you guys after soo long felt really good (bimaar tha isi bahane milne to aaye kam se kam :D and delete the pics that you have clicked :O ), the love you have shown made me cry a little as well afterwards...thank you so much for all those notes, cards & wishes..thanx a lot all of you. (:

This Year was the best for me, the realisations i had, the problem i faced, the people who backed me, the fucking psychiatrist sessions (official & unofficial), the love i received from so many people, i never meant to hurt anyone & always try hard to keep everything clear and in order but something’s are not in our hand. I love u all (who cried & who didn’t as well) ...still there r certain people who got left, i love you too guys, love u soo much for all those wishes & notes...means a lot to me. Text me, Email me, or better call me whenever u need something from me, i would be Happy to Help You Guys (anyone & everyone is allowed to :D, just send me your contact numbers; i lost it )

I believe in coming year 2017,i am gonna implement the only resolution i took which is to be a Better Human Being. I Love You all and Thanks for being a part of my life :)

And..

“Take into account that Great Love and Great Achievements involve Great Risk. And that a Loving atmosphere in your home, around you is the foundation for your life. Be Gentle with the Earth, Be Gentle with one another. When Disagreements come remember always to protect the spirit of yourself & of others as well. When you realise you’ve made a mistake, apologize and take immediate actions to correct it. Speak & Say what you meant, Do what you love, Be Humble but Ruthless, Be Weird but Sincere, Be Calm but Contagious, Be Kind, Be Lovable, Be Helpful, Be Yourself. Remember that Best Relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other. So Love Yourself, Love One Another, Love all that which makes your life together and all else will follow.”

!!! Happy New Year !!!