Answers for Unknown..

One of the hardest things in life that I felt is to “Not knowing of things”, as being the person who likes to keep things simple, clear and brief it’s in my nature to get to know or to predict things or situations way before it happens and it is not like I dream about it, it’s the way I analyze upcoming scenarios. However few months back I realized it’s not that always easy to predict situations.

Waking up one day and realizing everything is not in your hand anymore, you don’t know what is going on, you have no idea what happened in the past, feels like you just don’t have anything in your hand to move ahead. The best thing I felt about the “Past” is, it lays the ground on which you make your step ahead, of course sometimes you overthink it repeatedly but you do just to make sure you don’t fall for the same shit again in the future. But for me there was nothing like that, everything seems new, it’s like there is nothing which you can correlate to. Every person feels different & new, some were new, some old; few things & places, you feel like you are in the wrong world or something, you do things but feels like it’s the first time you are doing it when everyone else is saying that you did it numerous times how could you not know it? You watch things and suddenly you got a "deja vu" feeling to it & the situation around you, Talking to the people who are saying “You seems different”, well yeah of course not knowing about the past & to lose memories, feeling of new to everything around is what makes yourself “Different” for people. They talk but they don’t feel it’s you whom they are talking too, some felt that you are just pretending to be who you are not, some loose trust, some stays with you to help you go through it all not alone, but in the end it’s you who push yourself ahead.

Every day was new to me, it’s like I am re-living life, starting fresh but how could it be called as “Fresh start” when you do have past behind you which you have no idea about. You don’t know what are the memories that you have, you have no idea about the situations you have faced in your past, or the people that you met, or the numerous moments that you have lived, I mean how could you as a person feels like “It’s fine?”, NO its not.
It is so frustrating to not know things for me, especially for a person who thinks a lot in his life, being an introvert, I do not take things lightly but to make any decisions to move ahead you got to have some base for it, that’s where it all came down on me so hard that I almost broke into pieces several times and then one day I felt, That’s it, I don’t want to feel like this and I started not to think anymore, lets re-make the base for the coming journey ahead.

As Eminem said,
"Life's handing you lemons;
make lemonade then.."

Forgetting all about past turns out to be best thing, you have new things to do, new people to meet, new perspective and new thoughts to every situations, to every people around you (Who stayed), new hobbies, new music, everything new and worst thing was losing people that was part of your past, of course you can’t make everyone stay in your life, if they trust you they will stay otherwise they don’t and I stopped explaining things to people very years before, it’s fucking disgusting thing, if someone says “Just leave me alone” or “Don’t talk to me anymore” that is a great thing, you have one less person to worry about and could make some room for another one, of course some people are crucial part of your life, no-one can take their place so you have to keep that place vacant and no matter how hard you try to fill it, trust me it never will so just accept that truth and move ahead, It hurts, you feel the emptiness, you will going to feel lonely, but in the end you have to accept that, so why not accept it before all of these depressing things comes to you. Don’t stay in the denial that “Will they going to come back or not?” Answer to that is “If that person do want to come back to you, why the hell did they left you in the first place?" #food_for_thought 
and even after everything that person did to you and whatever you went through there will always a room for that one special person in your life and I guess we should keep that room as it is.

So beginning again was not so bad after all for me, Feels good to start again, not knowing all about the past, not having a fucking clue about your past, It’s like to reborn yourself again, trust me :D (Thanks to god to erase all that past) and it’s good to change yourself, it is boring to be the same person that you were in your past, and accepting the thing that "If you can't know everything that is about to happen then why do you waster your time on that by overthinking about it again and again?" and it’s totally fine to “Not know about the Answers of Unknown” , it’s OK. I have many things unknown in my life now especially about my past but I don’t go there anymore, I stopped because all it makes me is sad and I want to be happy.

All you can do is enjoy what you have now;
 Be Happy, Be Kind, Be Ruthless, Be Relentless, Be Humble,
Be Yourself and above all..
Be Human.